It felt so good to delete it. It became so depressing to even have around since people stopped replying to me, interacting with me. It was downright sad to see everyone else interacting with each other but not with me, and I thought “Why am I even doing this? Why do I even have this thing anymore?” I got no enjoyment out of it, and really, who wants to hear me whine about ‘Ohhh, no one wants to play with me anymore….’ So I deleted it, and moved on.
It it felt GREAT.
I don’t even have to explain this one to you all, I know you get it.
Long story short. I submitted an ad on Y! A while back for some RP within a fandom using OCs. Got a reply back from a Dutch player who was interested. Nervous at first because of time zones and language and wasn’t sure if our muses will get along and become lovers naturally. I was pleasantly surprised when our muses formed a relationship organically without much effort and the plots came on their own through our storytelling. Now I am excited every morning to RP with him and see what kinds of shenanigans our boys get into.
I do a lot of RP’s with my partners using dual plots - one for their original character and one for my own. I usually go in more excited about my plot than my partner’s. Almost always, the secondary plot ends up giving me far more feels and real emotions from that set of characters than my own side of things. My partners are always talented with both plots, but somehow I always get more feels from their characters than mine.
I role-play in chat as well as on tumblr, and a handful of times when trying to copy and paste other things, my RP stuff’s been copy and pasted instead. It’s my own damn fault but it’s colossally embarrassing sometimes if you’re talking to someone who isn’t much of a role-player, or isn’t fond of it.
I have a search thread I bump regularly with a list of roleplay genres I usually do and when I look through the list I can feel the motivation to do those genres.But time and time again when someone sends a PM after they’ve picked a genre, my brain goes “No not that one.”
I wish I wasn’t so picky all the time.
Don’t get me wrong. My partner is amazing, their writing skills are intimidating and they have a good habit of writing lengthy paragraphs in reply. Except every single one of their characters have these highly exaggerated reasons that they need “saving” and are constantly “victimized” and basically take the spotlight in almost all our plots even if they were previously plotted and had no indication of this happening.
Talking it over goes right over their head and I feel so conflicted because they’re an amazing writer. They’ve just got limited roles that they play and it’s gotten too repetitive to enjoy anymore.
Now this isn’t a complaint. When I received the art I started laughing & laughed for a good hour. I still find it funny, because I was never expecting to have an OC genderbent. It certainly made my day to have this happen.